Vision or Voice

About a month ago, my teenaged son asked me if I could have one of my MS symptoms reversed, what would it be? I answered immediately: vision. I have tiny blind spots right smack dab in the center of my field of vision, making it hard to see detail, almost impossible to read from paper, and I have almost given up driving. Not being able to see detail also affects my handwriting, I can’t read music, and I have mistaken others for my own children more times than I care to admit. My own children! Sometimes I find myself thinking “Man, this really stinks!” as if I am surprised that failing vision would be hard. Duh!

Anyway, a month later and I have reconsidered. Over that time my voice has become much more compromised. It ranges from strained and “mumbly” to barely audible. I cannot sing, and I have a hard time annunciating as it seems that the nerves around my mouth and throat just aren’t working right. I have realized that vision is mostly an “intake” function and voice is more of an “outflow” ability, and I think I would rather talk than see. If my voice returns, I could sing to my children, teach them in greater detail, to say nothing of giving talks and lessons at church. Vision is more about me. Voice is more about them.

I feel that this trial is teaching me so much, but is it just for me? I guess I can still keyboard. That is an outlet, right?