I have to be careful because sometimes, if I’m not feeling well, I forget to eat. Or I feel too tired to eat. If I don’t eat, any fatigue is exacerbated of course. Being more tired, I really don’t want to eat. Kara called me on this yesterday. It wasn’t a terrible day by any stretch, but I had unwittingly gotten into this little cycle. I just felt kinda wiped out and defeated. By 3pm she asked what I had eaten that day and I realized that I had only had a piece of coffee cake. No wonder! (And Kara made the coffee cake; if she hadn't I probably wouldn't have eaten anything.) I used to be such a glutton, now I so rarely even feel hunger. I still enjoy meals and eating (sometimes) but I have to remember to do it. Today I am feeling (and eating) better!
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My Black Cloud
In 2006, I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, or MS. I had heard of this disease, but knew nothing about it. I have since learned that really is more of a symptom than a disease -- tiny little scars on the nerve membranes of the brain and spinal cord. These scars are evidence that something in your body went wrong and nerve damage is the result. Exactly what nerves are damaged, and to what extent, is highly individualized. I'm certain there are many causes just as there are many "cures." The trick is figuring out yours.
When the problems began I was troubled by how omnipresent it was. I thought about it ALL the time, and I couldn’t stop thinking about it. The symptoms weren’t terribly acute, but they were so pervasive that I rarely would get a mental break. Besides, I am a worrier and that didn’t help.
By October 2007, problems with my eyesight, voice, and energy levels were interfering enough with my profession that I went on medical leave.
So there you have it. That is my “black cloud.” However, there are a lot of “silver linings” and I continue to feel that despite this challenge, I am one of the most blessed men alive. So why blog? Actually, I have another blog that chronicles funny thoughts and happy experiences, but only lightly touches on my illness. (There is a link to that site below.) The purpose of this blog is to share more directly how I am doing physically and emotionally. I hope it will help allay concern of family and friends that don’t see me often. Sure, it still dramatically affects me, but there are signs of improvement in some areas.
When the problems began I was troubled by how omnipresent it was. I thought about it ALL the time, and I couldn’t stop thinking about it. The symptoms weren’t terribly acute, but they were so pervasive that I rarely would get a mental break. Besides, I am a worrier and that didn’t help.
By October 2007, problems with my eyesight, voice, and energy levels were interfering enough with my profession that I went on medical leave.
So there you have it. That is my “black cloud.” However, there are a lot of “silver linings” and I continue to feel that despite this challenge, I am one of the most blessed men alive. So why blog? Actually, I have another blog that chronicles funny thoughts and happy experiences, but only lightly touches on my illness. (There is a link to that site below.) The purpose of this blog is to share more directly how I am doing physically and emotionally. I hope it will help allay concern of family and friends that don’t see me often. Sure, it still dramatically affects me, but there are signs of improvement in some areas.
Link to my happy blog
About Me
- David
- I am the third-born of ten children. I am a card-carrying member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (Mormon). I served a two-year mission in Argentina and later taught Spanish at the Missionary Training Center. I am married to a beautiful woman and we have four children. I have a bachelor's degree in economics and an MBA from BYU.
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Seriously Dave, eat! EAT GREENS!
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